Written By: Anton Sawyer
Originally this article was going to look at how much financial ruin Trisha Paytas will be in once their cash cow Onlyfans is banning their bread and butter of pornography on demand. But the more I thought about it, knowing Paytas' history, I realized that they will be fine ... mainly because they have no central core as a human being. I know this because they and I both share an overwhelmingly similar number of traits when it comes to the fine art of self-sabotaging. This is where the journey is leading us today; a look at how someone who so desperately wants to be taken seriously on some level does everything they can to destroy their own credibility and potential future. And the great misdirection in all of this is authenticity. Having already written about her previously (Trisha Paytas Is Failing At The Art Of Deception & Trisha Paytas-In 1543 It Was Discovered the World Orbits The Sun, Not You; With Peace and Love), there are many examples I could give regarding the hypocrisies and deceptions, but that’s not what this piece is about. It’s about looking at the roots of what could be causing it all. These are just opinions of course, nothing more. I don’t have a doctorate or the like, but I do have first-hand knowledge through a bunch of years of totally screwing up my own life to have a good enough guess as to what’s causing everything.
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I can already hear the knives unsheathing of Trisha's fans or those looking for a reason to be offended.
It’s imperative that I explain the similarities I have with Paytas before we get too far. This article isn’t about me, but it’s key to know that the statements I’m making are coming from a place of experience. Whether it’s caused by depression, PTSD from traumatic acts, mental or emotional torture, people tend to turn towards numbing behaviors do so to disconnect from their emotions. Drugs, alcohol, promiscuity, gambling, the synaptic nerves in the brain end up being subdued in the most pleasing way possible to the person wanting to cover these feelings. One of the many “charms” of every addict I’ve ever known (myself included), is that the more severe the damage, the more excessive the coping tends to be. For me, it was a combination of being born trailer-trash, not of the “correct” belief system, and constantly being reminded of that by the bullies at school. My parents split when I was 10, and my mother passed when I was 16. Before she passed, I had never touched a drug in my life. But by the time I was 17, I had not only engaged in certain adult activities with a gay man to procure cocaine (though I am not gay) but also almost died of a meth overdose. It’s the fact that I know what it’s like to essentially sell the services of your body in order to numb out as much as possible that makes me not take cheap shots at Paytas about it. Because of Paytas's history with sexual assault, seeing the choices made of sex work and internet pornography isn’t all that surprising. One of the things you learn in psychology is that by and large, victims of sexual assault typically fall into one of two categories. They either become completely closed off sexually and refuse to be touched by anyone at any time. The other coping mechanism is hyper-sexuality. Because the victim had the choice completely taken away from them, they overcompensate by being promiscuous all while thinking “I choose who I sleep with. I am in charge of my body. I am in control.” It has almost nothing to do with the act itself. Putting this aside for a moment, there’s one other little portion of the life of Paytas that brings this into train-wreck territory: their obsession with the entertainment business.
It’s this trait that both Paytas and I share; we’ve both worked in the entertainment industry. Paytas as, a multi-media personality, and myself as a music journalist and Public Relations agent who has worked with Grammy-winning artists for years. You learn incredibly quickly that the entertainment industry has very little to do with reality. That’s where a lot of the appeal to many comes from. The thought of being able to do what you want and have people adore you for it. It’s not only incredibly intoxicating, it's also incredibly damaging. It is a world where you can easily fall into your own hype and start to think that the image you’ve created is really who you are at the core. For those who are ill-equipped to separate the two, it can cause a myriad of mental health issues where there is no division between “art” and “life.” This is Trisha Paytas today.
Reading the Paytas Twitter feed is like watching the disjointed musings of someone who sees or hears something and feels obligated to speak about it—no matter how little they know. To be honest, it’s like reading the old Twitter feed of Donald Trump; except without the bigotry. Yes, I know a social media star must let everyone not only know of what they had from McDonald’s for lunch but also when it comes out later in a classic “poop tweet.” What is concerning though is when Paytas tries to play “political optics” with others. The greatest recent examples are the dramas surrounding Gabbie Hanna and Ethan Klein. There are a thousand articles and videos online that break down the drama with Hanna succinctly, so I’m only going to focus on their response. On August 15th Paytas tweeted "I went on Gabbie’s podcast trying to end beef with her, try and have her see where I was coming from with why I had an issue with her. Did it work? No. But I tried." It was followed it up with another tweet stating "I don’t cower away from people who I disagree with or that don’t like me. I face it. Maybe I can learn, they can grow or it could end in having a successful podcast or it could end in complete shit. But why shut out an opportunity for growth because of beef ?" This is a misdirection that is a particular favorite of mine. As humans, we value the need for forgiveness. It makes us feel like we are capable of moral reasoning and can prevent a de-evolution towards the petty and self-centered. But when you do it in a way to self-espouse how forgiving you are, it just reads hollow. That's what they don't get. Just like the Christian who makes it a point to tell you how forgiving they are when the life of someone they don't like going in the gutter, and how they have made piece with said enemy.
When it comes to Ethan Klein it’s a bit different. I’ve already covered it in-depth (Trisha Paytas-In 1543 It Was Discovered the World Orbits The Sun, Not You; With Peace and Love), but the one thing that bears mentioning about this drama since then is the fact that Paytas went on the podcast of Klein’s enemy, Keemstar. It’s one thing to have a fight and falling out with someone, but to assist their enemy, even if only a teeny amount, shows no loyalty. But it does give us the final piece of the puzzle: between the disassociation of sex and self, the overwhelming need of the limelight provided by any drama, and the way they shifts from being the victim of an online beef to being the hero all add up to a human that has no core of self.
I know there are going to be a lot of you that are going to give me a Greendale Schmitty “A-DUH” for this. These issues have all been pretty well documented, so what’s the story?
With the fact that Stanford medical has shown both Gen Z and Alpha are going through a great human biological shift in our brains to make us not think and act on emotion, Paytas needs to be called out for this before any more damage is done to the impressionable youth who thinks they has something to offer humanity other than entertainment. Both generations are craving authenticity. This is why in 2016 Sanders was the favorite of the youth of America; his authenticity. If he said he fought for the rights of minorities, there would be pictures of him in the trenches of the Civil Rights conflicts of the 1960s; the youth ate it up. When your brain is being wired to accept that everything is a lie. That Fear Of Missing Out (FOMO) is a real thing that can cause depression among a whole host of other mental and emotional issues in people who can’t provide a good enough illusion to the world of the internet. Whenever there is talk of how the online generations have become separated from reality, Paytas is a huge contributing factor to this problem. And that’s why this article exists. I’m one of those people who believe that you can’t fix an issue unless you realize it and expose the issues to as many people as possible.
I mentioned earlier that I too had been a mess for a long time, and I had to confront all of it during Covid. I used the quarantine time to get counseling, find out what the core issues were and work on them to stop the self-sabotaging and give myself the chance at a future. As long as there is a need for fame or validation from the masses, I doubt Paytas will find the peace they need and will continue to add to the authenticity problem we’re currently in the midst of as a society. If there’s one thing they've taught us though is this. You can have no core as a human. No values, nothing to pin on your hat. But as long as you do enough things to irritate enough people into frothing hatred and keep your name in the headlines, that’s all you need in life to succeed. Why … why does it still feel like I’m talking about Trump?
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